At the end of 6 years, I have given up on the idea of arriving someplace. There will never be a time when I understand everything and can live without fear. I expected to get to that place. I thought that after 6 years, I would have it figured out. I have not. Maybe that…
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Staying the Course Through Cancer: Real Courage Beyond Forced Positivity
People love to say, “Just stay positive,” when you are in treatment. At first, I tried to do that, to keep a brave face and a smile no matter what was happening. Over time, I learned that forced positivity is not the same as real courage. What has kept me going is something quieter and…
Read moreA Letter to Anyone Navigating the Unknown: Cancer lessons on fear, hope, and quiet courage.
What do you learn about yourself when life breaks open? When the test results come back, and the ground shifts, you meet parts of yourself you never asked to meet. This is for anyone living in that space. It speaks to fear, to hope, to the quiet work of getting through a day. If you…
Read moreA Letter to Anyone Navigating the Unknown: Cancer lessons on fear, hope, and quiet courage.
What do you learn about yourself when life breaks open? When the test results come back, and the ground shifts, you meet parts of yourself you never asked to meet. This is for anyone living in that space. It speaks to fear, to hope, to the quiet work of getting through a day. If you…
Read moreLone Swimmer in Deep Water
A personal reflection on loneliness during cancer and the quiet courage of daily life. I opened my eyes at 6:47 AM. No alarm. My body keeps its clock now. I get up when the pills are due, when my hip flares, or when my mind decides the night is over. Like every morning since my…
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