The Day I Realized I Had No Memory of My Morning Coffee As I looked at the empty mug on my desk, a dry ring of foam clung to the rim. The cup sat right where I thought I’d put it, or had I? I couldn’t recall a single sip. Not the warmth sliding down…
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Are You Living Your Life or Just Watching It Pass By?
Are You Living Your Life or Just Watching It Pass By? I stood at my kitchen window last Tuesday morning, coffee in hand, staring at nothing in particular. My wife asked me something, I can’t even remember what, and I realized I’d been somewhere else entirely. Not thinking deep thoughts. Not planning. Just absent. How…
Read moreHow I Stopped Catastrophizing With Cancer: What Changed
If you’ve ever noticed your mind leaving the room while your body stays behind, you’re not alone. A cancer diagnosis can make this worse. One moment you’re replaying yesterday’s appointment, the next you’re bracing for tomorrow’s phone call. The mind turns into a time-traveling machine, and it rarely takes you anywhere peaceful. Catastrophizing feeds on…
Read moreJoy Remains Alive
There was a day I laughed so hard at something ridiculous on TV that, for a moment, I forgot I was sick. Then I came back to myself. Wait, am I allowed to have fun? Is there some rule that says I have to be miserable once everything has fallen apart? The guilt came fast….
Read moreAt the end of 6 years, I have given up on the idea of arriving someplace. There will never be a time when I understand everything and can live without fear. I expected to get to that place. I thought that after 6 years, I would have it figured out. I have not. Maybe that is the first thing I want you to know.
At the end of 6 years, I have given up on the idea of arriving someplace. There will never be a time when I understand everything and can live without fear. I expected to get to that place. I thought that after 6 years, I would have it figured out. I have not. Maybe that…
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