There’s a moment many people remember with sharp detail, the room, the chair, the sound of a paper gown, the pause before the word Cancer lands, even despite the promise of early detection. After that, time can feel strange. Days move too fast, then too slow. Ordinary life keeps going, even when yours has split…
Read moreCategory: Musings Along A Cancer Fighter’s Journey
Might a modest tale heal the way you face your own battles? I write about what it is like to be a cancer warrior, so I ask myself now… What power do these words truly have? They are just moments on my journey that capture some fear, hope and defiance of mine. Through blogging, I have a platform to express that innermost essence and see what depths or courage emerges in the most unlikely places. Whether you’re in the midst of it, walking a similar path by her side, or holding space from across a collective biosphere—let these reflections be our rebuke once more—that courage is not far away; finding strength and leading with brave hearts are just who we truly are lifted to see.
Was it worth it?
Was it worth it? My palliative care doctor sat across from me with my chart. It held every treatment I’d had over six years of chemotherapy. The whole list was printed for her to review, page after page. It included the stem cell transplant, and the six months I got before the cancer came back….
Read moreYou’re Still You.
You’re Still You. Some mornings I stand in front of the mirror and pause. I look at my face and feel a gap between what I see and what I expect. The scars speak for moments I never planned to explain. My body moves in a new way now. It does less. It tires faster….
Read moreLetting g0
People talk about letting go like it’s a single brave moment, a clean release, a door shutting with a soft click. Cancer doesn’t work like that. It’s more like learning to loosen your grip one finger at a time, while your life keeps happening. Some days, letting go means releasing what you thought recovery would…
Read moreYou Have More Inner Strength Than You Ever Knew Existed
Six years ago, I started fighting cancer. Since then, I’ve been through 47 MRI scans. I’ve had dozens of treatments and procedures. I’ve heard more scary words than I can count. I’ve sat through too many talks about what might come next. And I’m still nervous. My heart still jumps. My hands still shake. But…
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