Guilt can feel like a second illness during Cancer, but it doesn’t get to tell the whole story of your life; you can notice when it drains your energy, name it as unhelpful, and gently set it down. When you choose one small, kind action instead of endless self-blame, you protect your limited strength for…
Read moreCategory: Musings Along A Cancer Fighter’s Journey
Might a modest tale heal the way you face your own battles? I write about what it is like to be a cancer warrior, so I ask myself now… What power do these words truly have? They are just moments on my journey that capture some fear, hope and defiance of mine. Through blogging, I have a platform to express that innermost essence and see what depths or courage emerges in the most unlikely places. Whether you’re in the midst of it, walking a similar path by her side, or holding space from across a collective biosphere—let these reflections be our rebuke once more—that courage is not far away; finding strength and leading with brave hearts are just who we truly are lifted to see.
How I Plan My Treatment Weeks So I Don’t Fall Apart By Friday
By Wednesday of my first chemo cycle, I cried in the shower because I dropped the soap. Not because of the soap, of course. My body ached, my mind felt foggy, and my heart carried a quiet fear that this was my new normal. By Friday, I felt like an empty shell. I knew I…
Read moreAt the end of 6 years, I have given up on the idea of arriving someplace. There will never be a time when I understand everything and can live without fear. I expected to get to that place. I thought that after 6 years, I would have it figured out. I have not. Maybe that is the first thing I want you to know.
At the end of 6 years, I have given up on the idea of arriving someplace. There will never be a time when I understand everything and can live without fear. I expected to get to that place. I thought that after 6 years, I would have it figured out. I have not. Maybe that…
Read moreRealizing the best things in life are not things but moments that take your breath away
The day you hear the word Cancer, the world shrinks to a few square feet. A room, a chair, a doctor’s voice. Everything else goes fuzzy at the edges. The car you drive, the phone in your pocket, the clothes in your closet, all fade. What stays sharp is the feeling of a hand in…
Read moreStaying the Course Through Cancer: Real Courage Beyond Forced Positivity
People love to say, “Just stay positive,” when you are in treatment. At first, I tried to do that, to keep a brave face and a smile no matter what was happening. Over time, I learned that forced positivity is not the same as real courage. What has kept me going is something quieter and…
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